You taught me the word hurt.

FML.

ever had a situation , whereby tons of problems come to you in a certain time ? im experiencing this now , lots of problems come pouring to me within a short time , i feel very helpless , very weak , totally have no solution to any problems at all . despite all these , somethings disappoints me more . a figure at home , whom you call father , should be someone that solves all your problem , giving you courage , giving you encouragement , giving you a sense of security , and letting you live in an problem free environment , i hate to say this , but my life , totally suck , all i've mentioned , my father did not provide me it , i don't blame him , i shoul not take all these for granted , but what im sad and disappoint about is , when problem arise , and it have sort of connections to me , he pushes it to me , is this what a father should do ? is this what i deserve ? other family might have their own problem , but mine , i don't think others have it . if i were to end my life one day , without a doubt , the cause will be him , my life is like a mess partially because of him , and mainly myself . i feel as if both hands are cuffed up , both legs have huge weights tieing onto it , i can do nothing , totally nothing , helpless and being given up on . maybe ending my life is and relief to him , maybe i really should , im worthless anyway . maybe i really should end my life . i really should .

rafiq ; isaac

went to eg2 tutorial this morning , ended up sleeping through the whole tutorial -.- went to debrief session after that , spoke alot about how i felt and such , atmosphere was rather on the sad side :\ went to have lunch at malan place after that , then to library with rafiq to do our CATS slides , he went off at around 3.30pm , so i studied alone while waiting for ryan and dickson to study together m in the end we went to bball , hahas ! bused home aftermath . just reached home ! and still got EMAT 1 thousand word report to do ):

promise me you wont
misuse my trust again will you ?

leroy ; isaac

hi people ! well , school today , was alright , went for poly-limpics playoffs today after class , did not manage to get to the poly-limpics games , was disappointed though , but i did my best , i hope you saw us playing (: so many reports , so little time ! sigh !

sometimes i really think alot about you.

Sir Stamford Raffles

ahhhhh! today , went to cut and dye hair in the noon , then went to 515 for lunch then basketball till night ! dota a few rounds , chat on msn and stuffs ! and here i am blogging ! tomorrow there is playoffs for ME divisions poly-limpic teams for futsal , gonna run my fastest and try my hardest , for you my friend , i will . anyway , sleep early people , sick season! try to drink more water ! nights ! ciaos !

i regret i my actions , sincerely , i apologies , i hope you will forgive me .

i see the fragile in life , one could simply lose it anytime , i never knew this until i learn the fact , i dont know how to react when i heard of the news , i was shocked , alot of things and images came back to me , even though we are not close friends , but still we are friends and classmates . i really hope things are not this way , but reality have to be faced , i hope you are now back to lord , safe and sound in another place , farewell , rest in peace , my friend .

Isaac Neo
11 Sept 1991
17 18
Ex-wrps student
Ex-wgs student
NgeeAnnPoly, MTE

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Ugly,
Nerdy,
Weak,
Stupid,
Thats me,i shall live with it.

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